Take this burden from me...

Another morning started with feelings of anxiety before my feet even reach the floor. Woke after a good nights sleep and as I look to the clock to see the time, I instantly feel the feels start. My stomach feels all jittery. I feel my abdomen grow tight.  And I feel worried for no real reason. Why?

I've had a few good days in a row. Not 100% myself coming off the stressful weekend. But much better then I felt earlier in the weekend. So why in the world would I wake today with feelings of anxiety?  I just want to be free from this! It has been a long, hard winter. Anyone who has had to face all that we've faced this winter would understandably feel some stress or "circumstantial depression." But it's nothing like the stress of what we were going through last year. And yet I've been overwhelmed and unhappy. I'm not in some downward spiral (as some in my family have said behind my back). I just want to snap out of it. Feeling anxiety just makes my IBS flair up and adds to my feeling down. When you don't feel well you don't have the best attitude. So all together it's been a rough mix.

We've lost so many loved ones and the enemy knows that my fear is to leave this Earth too soon myself. I want to see my kids grown up. And I believe God has promised that to me. Yet the enemy comes in and plays on the thoughts in my mind. He causes me to worry and fear that there is more going on in my body than what I know is going on. These thoughts are on and off. When I am not experiencing them I feel SO much better. But even one little thought of something serious being wrong with me and I go into this feeling of depression and frustration. I want it all lifted from me! I am crying out to you Lord to TAKE THIS FROM ME! I no longer want to be burdened down by these feelings. Please replace them with peace and joy! I want to to be anxious for NOTHING! I want to seek Your face and find the peace I so desperately need. Fill me now Lord. Let me feel Your peace and guidance. Thank you Lord for Your promises!